Short Story: Maukita
If I was to write a child story, I would start off with a classic beginning like "Once upon a time..." But the difference between this story and child a story is that it is and isn't fiction. It's reality based off personal experiences and perhaps imagination. More or less, my imagination stems from my subconscious, my dreams, my observations, my deeper thoughts. I'm assuming that most people can relate.
Life is quite informal isn't it. It's simple yet we make it difficult. I'm assuming it's because we are programed to make life difficult, to think, to be, to question, and to understand. Makes sense. Well today, I'm not necessarily here to question the purpose of life as me. More as another me, or another person in which I have reincarnated.
Maukita...
Every morning, day, and night something felt lost. Something was always missing until Maukita got older. But even still something was missing. To wake up in a world so corrupted, so lost, so ill was a bit stressful. So to challenge her pessimistic ways, she transformed quite easily, if you ask me. Well here, let's go back a few years so that we all can understand.
She grew up in a house that was narrow, one-track minded. Good and evil were taught as real and infinite and to choose one over the other was predestined by a higher power, not fate or luck. Most of her life she made decisions that deemed rebellious in here parents eyes as rules and expectations smothered her very existence, her very personality, her. She grew to become a silent fighter, not of words or fists, but of thoughts. Like most teenagers, she questioned everything from good to evil and which is better. Is there truly a God? Why don't I want to obey? Why am I always grounded...? As time continued, she came to terms with who she was. Her history of defiance defined her, molded her into the thinker she was predestined to become. As no one is perfect, she made a few mistakes along the lines of cheating and lying, but the big question was "am I a devil's child for those acts?" No one could answer her questions, not even the parents that claimed to lead happy and godly lives filled with peace and absent of worldly evils.
Before she entered college, a revolution had occurred within her. She found, what she called, the Now. The now is simply the present moment, life as it is at this second. She witnessed the vibrant colors, the sensation of touch, the beauty of sight, and the essence of sound versus silence. It was this reality that struck her as if her mind was finally opened, as if she finally understood what it meant to find yourself, to look within, and live with the energy of the cosmos. She simply could not contain her new findings, so she shared thoughts with others who she found could not fathom her. That's when she realized that not all people are blessed with this vision.
So she entered college, as more than a student. However, she kept her thoughts to herself until one day... Yes, one day she met someone, a boy actually her age, her year. They met in a very interesting way using worldly pleasures to connect in one night. But they met nonetheless. The importance of this meeting she found was the level they connected on. It was deeper than she had ever felt in her eighteen years of living. So she submitted to her growing affections for this guy. She was confused as to why she was drawn to him so intensely, until that one day she held his hand and their hearts were beating as one. With this she knew that she discovered something more than just a fling, but love, and not just love, but deep and passionate love, love that she did not and at times would not understand.
She found herself mesmerized by him, sacrificing herself and unknowingly investing her life in him. He was mysterious and curious. He doubted just like her, even thought just like her, and at times, seemed to be more aware of who he was compared to her. How she admired him so, looked up to him even. As time continued, he would become her lover, her best friend, her book to write in, a heart to beat with, her "go-to" guy, her world, and her king. He showed her his life, his thoughts, his ways. He held her close and loved her hard. Although not everyday was as peachy as they should be, they connected in a very nontraditional way. They fell in love. She found her soulmate...
After a year their understanding of one another began to fade, but the passion never left. Thoughtful connection I suppose. Their relationship ended with the two not knowing who the other was, not knowing who they were... confused. What she found was mind-opening again... thus being herself. There is a saying that once you find the truth you never forget it, and once you find the way, you never lose sight of it. Depression would never revisit her because of this reality... because she never forgot the Now.
She found that the opposite of fear is love, that the opposite of chaos is order, that the opposite of self-hate is self-love and that true love never left her. She found that she can harmonize with change whether good or bad. That she can unbecome who she thought she should be to become who she really is. That the unknown is not scary, rather the unknown is Now and that each second will reveal itself to her. That what she always searched for lies within her and always did during all this time. She recognized the mistakes she made during their adventure, she apologized and expected nothing in return. In a way, she humbled herself since she knew that all that really mattered was to be with the energy of all.
She will always truly love the man she met, even through his present changes. The reality is that he will never be alone, as her heart beats at one with his. Her soulmate is forever her soulmate...
This very short story was meant to remind people of life's fluctuations. One moment, we're in heaven and the next, drowning at the bottom of the big blue. Never lose sight of who you are regardless if there is someone there or not. Always remember that self-love comes easier than self-hate and comprehend that if you do not love then you will fear to lose. Life can be difficult but it doesn't have to be. Simply forget everything (the past, the future) and visit the Now. Actually stay in the Now. Give it a try and your life will become more than clear. It will shine and your path will become evermore present.
Nameste.
Life is quite informal isn't it. It's simple yet we make it difficult. I'm assuming it's because we are programed to make life difficult, to think, to be, to question, and to understand. Makes sense. Well today, I'm not necessarily here to question the purpose of life as me. More as another me, or another person in which I have reincarnated.
Maukita...
Every morning, day, and night something felt lost. Something was always missing until Maukita got older. But even still something was missing. To wake up in a world so corrupted, so lost, so ill was a bit stressful. So to challenge her pessimistic ways, she transformed quite easily, if you ask me. Well here, let's go back a few years so that we all can understand.
She grew up in a house that was narrow, one-track minded. Good and evil were taught as real and infinite and to choose one over the other was predestined by a higher power, not fate or luck. Most of her life she made decisions that deemed rebellious in here parents eyes as rules and expectations smothered her very existence, her very personality, her. She grew to become a silent fighter, not of words or fists, but of thoughts. Like most teenagers, she questioned everything from good to evil and which is better. Is there truly a God? Why don't I want to obey? Why am I always grounded...? As time continued, she came to terms with who she was. Her history of defiance defined her, molded her into the thinker she was predestined to become. As no one is perfect, she made a few mistakes along the lines of cheating and lying, but the big question was "am I a devil's child for those acts?" No one could answer her questions, not even the parents that claimed to lead happy and godly lives filled with peace and absent of worldly evils.
Before she entered college, a revolution had occurred within her. She found, what she called, the Now. The now is simply the present moment, life as it is at this second. She witnessed the vibrant colors, the sensation of touch, the beauty of sight, and the essence of sound versus silence. It was this reality that struck her as if her mind was finally opened, as if she finally understood what it meant to find yourself, to look within, and live with the energy of the cosmos. She simply could not contain her new findings, so she shared thoughts with others who she found could not fathom her. That's when she realized that not all people are blessed with this vision.
So she entered college, as more than a student. However, she kept her thoughts to herself until one day... Yes, one day she met someone, a boy actually her age, her year. They met in a very interesting way using worldly pleasures to connect in one night. But they met nonetheless. The importance of this meeting she found was the level they connected on. It was deeper than she had ever felt in her eighteen years of living. So she submitted to her growing affections for this guy. She was confused as to why she was drawn to him so intensely, until that one day she held his hand and their hearts were beating as one. With this she knew that she discovered something more than just a fling, but love, and not just love, but deep and passionate love, love that she did not and at times would not understand.
She found herself mesmerized by him, sacrificing herself and unknowingly investing her life in him. He was mysterious and curious. He doubted just like her, even thought just like her, and at times, seemed to be more aware of who he was compared to her. How she admired him so, looked up to him even. As time continued, he would become her lover, her best friend, her book to write in, a heart to beat with, her "go-to" guy, her world, and her king. He showed her his life, his thoughts, his ways. He held her close and loved her hard. Although not everyday was as peachy as they should be, they connected in a very nontraditional way. They fell in love. She found her soulmate...
After a year their understanding of one another began to fade, but the passion never left. Thoughtful connection I suppose. Their relationship ended with the two not knowing who the other was, not knowing who they were... confused. What she found was mind-opening again... thus being herself. There is a saying that once you find the truth you never forget it, and once you find the way, you never lose sight of it. Depression would never revisit her because of this reality... because she never forgot the Now.
She found that the opposite of fear is love, that the opposite of chaos is order, that the opposite of self-hate is self-love and that true love never left her. She found that she can harmonize with change whether good or bad. That she can unbecome who she thought she should be to become who she really is. That the unknown is not scary, rather the unknown is Now and that each second will reveal itself to her. That what she always searched for lies within her and always did during all this time. She recognized the mistakes she made during their adventure, she apologized and expected nothing in return. In a way, she humbled herself since she knew that all that really mattered was to be with the energy of all.
She will always truly love the man she met, even through his present changes. The reality is that he will never be alone, as her heart beats at one with his. Her soulmate is forever her soulmate...
This very short story was meant to remind people of life's fluctuations. One moment, we're in heaven and the next, drowning at the bottom of the big blue. Never lose sight of who you are regardless if there is someone there or not. Always remember that self-love comes easier than self-hate and comprehend that if you do not love then you will fear to lose. Life can be difficult but it doesn't have to be. Simply forget everything (the past, the future) and visit the Now. Actually stay in the Now. Give it a try and your life will become more than clear. It will shine and your path will become evermore present.
Nameste.
